The last couple of months have proven quite interesting for me on a personal level.
While I have gotten a lot accomplished, I have done another round of dealing with a bad habit.
The habit is how I tend to interpret situations as personal attack or events in which I feel overly exposed.
This is something I’ve dealt with for a good bit of my life and began because of several traumatic events back in childhood.
To deal, over the years, I have turned to many options including tapping and cranial sacral massage, meditation and yoga. Each came with a sense of relief and each did much to lessen the feelings of being under attack.
I used to think when the habit would resurface that I had failed to eliminate the problem. Though that was back in the day when I thought whatever I did was only effective if there was never a problem again.
However, I have learned over the years that that is a form of self-judgment which does me no good. That’s a reaction which is not helpful and not truthful.
Now I understand when the attack habit shows up, it’s because there is something under the surface for me to explore. There’s an opportunity revealing itself if I will not go into self-judgment.
This time around I really got how one of my strengths (dealing with complexity) was getting the way. I was taking what was working easily and twisting it into a huge long list of to-dos which in the end didn’t get me anywhere.
I also have realized how turned around I get when I make a promise and it doesn’t feel like I’ve kept the promise. Which ends up being a problem only for me because I’m the only one witness to the promise.
I’m not even sure exactly why I am sharing this — other than to say this: sometimes the getting in our own way is what helps us get out of our own way!
Life isn’t about doing anything perfectly — it’s more about trusting self to deal when the pattern arises. Or at least that’s what’s going through my brain right now.
At the end of the day, I find I feel better and get more accomplished when I am gentle with myself and find a way to laugh at how the seeming “mistakes” are often translated into just the thing needed in the moment.
Certainly another gentle reminder that life is a journey, not a destination.
May your journey this month help you attend in a new way with the challenges and joys in life!
In Joy!
Cheryl
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